as i sit here in front of this laptop .
i sit & think, think about how 18 years of my life have gone by.
when i was younger i would wait & wait for this day to come, however eh .
i dont anymore, i can truely say this has been the worst bday every.
im stuck at home.
with a wired down mouth .
i cant even eat cake for god's sake .
now think about this. . .
the next birthday you have .
make sure you enjoy it to the fullest .
make sure you have as much fun as possible .
this is bad .
corection . . .
this is H O R R i B L E !!!!!
oo the joy . its my birthday .=/
fck this fckn surgery meng !!!!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
dead.
surgery is hell.
i tried cope'n with it.
i cant deal with it anymore.
im tired of it all.
im tired of not being able to eat.
im tired of not being able to talk.
im tired of everything being done for me.
if i could only go back a few days.
if i could just talk or eat again.
i'd be sooooo happy.
i wanna go back to my normal life.
i wanna be able to talk & sing and look in the mirror,
look in the mirror && feel && feel PRETTY again.
but until next month i have no choice.
i appreciate my friends whom have been there for me.
especially stacy && leonni && my wife.
leonni without you i'd be going nuts in my house.
i love you odeee biffle.<3
stacy without you i wouldnt have my little laughs of the day.
te quiero muchisimo lokita.<3
ahhhhh i feel like dying.=[
i tried cope'n with it.
i cant deal with it anymore.
im tired of it all.
im tired of not being able to eat.
im tired of not being able to talk.
im tired of everything being done for me.
if i could only go back a few days.
if i could just talk or eat again.
i'd be sooooo happy.
i wanna go back to my normal life.
i wanna be able to talk & sing and look in the mirror,
look in the mirror && feel && feel PRETTY again.
but until next month i have no choice.
i appreciate my friends whom have been there for me.
especially stacy && leonni && my wife.
leonni without you i'd be going nuts in my house.
i love you odeee biffle.<3
stacy without you i wouldnt have my little laughs of the day.
te quiero muchisimo lokita.<3
ahhhhh i feel like dying.=[
Monday, December 1, 2008
infieles.
its not right.
i know its not right.
he knows its not right.
but we like the rush.
i want him badly, but its not right.
he wants me, i can tell.
i need him, he is all i ever wanted.
then again how many times have i said this before?
why didnt i go that day?
why was i so stupid?
now she wants you.
now she needs you.
now she pleads for you,
in my dreams i dream of you.
this is crazy,
i dont want to do it.
but im going to.
because i want you.
you make me tingley inside.
so i know this gotta be right.
so lets see whaat goes on from here. . .
&& trust me ill be waiting my dear .
GOT DAMN YOUR A SEXYYYY ASS BEAST YOOO !! <33333
i know its not right.
he knows its not right.
but we like the rush.
i want him badly, but its not right.
he wants me, i can tell.
i need him, he is all i ever wanted.
then again how many times have i said this before?
why didnt i go that day?
why was i so stupid?
now she wants you.
now she needs you.
now she pleads for you,
in my dreams i dream of you.
this is crazy,
i dont want to do it.
but im going to.
because i want you.
you make me tingley inside.
so i know this gotta be right.
so lets see whaat goes on from here. . .
&& trust me ill be waiting my dear .
GOT DAMN YOUR A SEXYYYY ASS BEAST YOOO !! <33333
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