silent scream.

never leave someone you like for someone you love.
because that someone you like will leave you for someone they love?


maybe this is true.
maybe it was stupid of me to even think we had hope.
somewhere along these roads i have become heartless.
i dont care anymore, im not filled with the joy i once was.
the joy you gave me, when i would see your face.
whatever you say to me is worth nothing.
i dont believe S H i T you say anymore.
i believed you when you told me i was your everything.
i believed you when you used to tell me you missed me.
yet now, you say it, i can care less, you text it, i delete it.
you call, i dont pick up.
and you might wonder, why?
&& im going to explain to you why.

. . .

because you mean so much to me,
yet obvisously i dont mean shit to you.
i feel as if i love you, yet you show no type of emotion.
i fell for you, i fell hard.
and what did i get in return?
[sigh]

i dont know what you want.
when you tell me you miss me,
its like you just say it to say it.
i know you dont mean this.
&& if you do SHOW iT.
is that so much to ask for.

so i write in this blog all my emotions,
which i rather not express to you.
yet when i see you i melt.=/
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.


i adore you,
but i dont want to.
i miss you,
yet i dont want to.
i want you,
but i dont want to.
i need you,
yet i dont want to.


i remember the first time we kissed.
[sigh]

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