dead.

surgery is hell.


i tried cope'n with it.
i cant deal with it anymore.
im tired of it all.
im tired of not being able to eat.
im tired of not being able to talk.
im tired of everything being done for me.

if i could only go back a few days.
if i could just talk or eat again.
i'd be sooooo happy.

i wanna go back to my normal life.
i wanna be able to talk & sing and look in the mirror,
look in the mirror && feel && feel PRETTY again.

but until next month i have no choice.
i appreciate my friends whom have been there for me.
especially stacy && leonni && my wife.

leonni without you i'd be going nuts in my house.
i love you odeee biffle.<3

stacy without you i wouldnt have my little laughs of the day.
te quiero muchisimo lokita.<3


ahhhhh i feel like dying.=[